Summary of My Heart.

2012-02-01T17:00:00.000Z

my froggie has a secret admirer leh. monkey smore. aw sho chiutz. heheh.

just finished watching flipped. like finally. but wasted cannot download. boo. sial la, if watch this den watch a walk t remember. syaza confirm pasrah sia for days and weeks. eesh. im sucha loser whn it comes t these kinda stories. sigh. it wus annoying cos it keeps repeating th same scenes but from th guy and th girl point of view. and th ending wus kinda weak but come t think of it, it makes sense. a good sense. and its a good thing. cos th show shows tht eventho u are crushing, patience would make u think and realise alot of stuffs from different perspective. and you get t see another side of th person. eh sigh, th tree me like. if i can plant tht tree in my house, i would. and every morning, i'll climb just t see th sunrise. ive always dreamt of a backyard w a treehouse and swing.
and i like how they use this girl. yea, she may not be th hotstuffs and all but not all girls hotstuffs what. and i like how th story line goes from plain jane t beautiful. just like a walk t remember.
haiy, i wunt stop thinking nonsense for atleast tonight la nampaknya. haha.

hey you there.

i had a nice time today. no, not nice. a comfortable happy time today. i like how im not awkward around you and i like how i dunt stress t please you. you make me that comfortable in my skin. and i am glad of tht. not many people would see me so comfortable so soon. hah. and i saw another side of you during our meet just now. well, i wunt write much since idk who reads and who doesnt. must be careful. heh.

2years and 8 months w a discount from aunty and a 50% discount voucher eh boy? i want you t explain t me this pls. im waiting.

well, mornights tyou passerbys.

gna spend th day w sunshine and th night w th swaggers later.

i bet it would be awesome.

much love.

2012-02-01T03:30:00.000Z

Virgos are often put down badly by many astrologers and written up as being fussy and narrow-minded. But when a Virgo shines, there is practically no sign to match their inner light. An in-tune Virgo is a treat to meet. When a Virgo is confident within themselves they are the most successful, structured and creative of all the signs.

Many Virgos can be found working in the "service to others" industries, ranging from welfare work, doctors, school-teachers through to practising natural forms of healing like massage, herbal remedies etc. One of the most magical characteristics of the Virgo is no matter how many times life or romance turns sour on them, they still manage to maintain faith in others, refusing to become cynical. There is ingenuity around this sign, a kind-heartedness, which unfortunately is sometimes played upon by others for their advantage. Virgos can often become victims of relationship power-games, where they are mistreated.

Creative and sensitive, Virgos are delicate people who, like rare and special orchids, require individual treatment to fully blossom into their true unique beauty. Shy, they are happy to allow others to take centre-stage and often generate their time and energy into making those they love happy or successful.

Virgos are givers and when the chips are down and you need a friend, the one available during those testing times when you need advice or companionship the most, is likely to be a Virgo. Virgos understand human frailties better than most, because they are so deep and reflective themselves. With a Virgo in your life you have someone who understands and cares and any romance or friendship based upon these qualities is certain to be mutually rewarding.

2012-01-31T16:11:00.000Z

why am i feeling so sian these weeks? why do i get affected by tiny shit this days? i havent been getting affected for so long man. i think it started during dotc1 whn.. ykno.. that happened. HAIYA SIAN.
whats so wrong about my face? why do people like t comment about my face? its just a face. it shows boredom. its a blank face. a face tht is suppose t passby and not get noticed. seriously what. the. fuck. la k. idk why. i think th most sensitive thing ppl can judge about me is my face. i think cos it links back t my fucked up past. i think cos it links back t incidents whr i got in trouble w my dad. cos it links back t incidents whr i got in trouble w th head teacher of my batch. whr unnecessary troubles were created and times were wasted. i feel sad thinking about those times. i still remembered whn i wasted time trying t practice a face whr i cn please people or be ignored. i remembered whn dad seriously told me t stand infront of a mirror everyday t look at my face and make it into a pleasing face so tht i wunt be in trouble and i wunt displease(/unplease/whateverfuck you say it) anyone. cmon, how th fuck can you train your face into becoming smth they are not. its my natural face. what can i do about it?
dyou kno what my resolution is.. whn i start t work and have enough money.. imma go for a plastic surgery t have a more pleasant face. anddd imma go and laser my eyes so tht i wunt need t use specs. seriously. my dad even said tht i wunt go anywhr w this face of mine cos no work would want this face. yup. HAIYA SIAN.
syaza, are you okay? syaza why dyou look like you're about t commit suicide? syaza are you mad? syaza are you gna whack somebody soon? syaza have bad vibes. syaza have an unpleasant face. syaza's face makes her unapproachable. syaza lek uh. syaza is arrogant. syaza is ignorant. syaza is depressed. APA LAGI KORANG NAK COMMENT PASAL MUKA AKU?! CEPAT LAI UH. FUCK YOU ALL FOR JUDGING MY FUCKING FACE. FUCK YOU ALL FOR JUDGING GOD'S CREATION. so what if i have an ugly, unapproachable, bad vibed depressed face?! even whn you say all these, you do see me smile t people i know. why do they NOT CARE and still tried t be my friend?! IF I AM THAT UNAPPROACHABLE, WHY DO ALL THESE PEOPLE TAKE THEIR TIME TO SLOWLY GET T KNOW ME?! WHY ARENT THEY AFRAID OF MY FACE?! th annoying thing is that, you guys know me. i act normal in your presence and you know how i am. but did you even take th time t know me? no. you just stared at me while i talk and you comment shit about my face. you ask me t smile more? fuck. why must i smile at you whn you dunt even smile at me?
its just.. sad yknow. hurgh.
and people have been talking about graduation and sips and leaving sch these days. which makes me even more sad. cant you just let th days passby and not remind me of this depressing topic? i have come t realise that im closer t year2s and year3s. and these months have been pleasing for me cos ive found my lepak people. and im getting comfortable. getting comfortable t th point whr i can be rude, joke, complain, have fun, express wout being judged, changing opinions and advices wout a grudge. yknow, those special people whr you keep finding whn you are not busy w work. its hard for me t be this way. and it usually takes a longer time. but w these people, im so comfortable tht i opened up more.
im sorry t say but im not like tht w th year1s yet. and i dunt think i'll ever be tht comfortable. yeah, i may be close t some and some may treat me as their close ones (maybe) but they are th type whr i cn just not think about thm somedays. whereas th year2s and 3s.. i could just drop whtever im doing most of th time just t meet them. even for a quick break. thts how special they are. why.. why is this happening?
i tried w th year1s but im not fully open t accept them. however close they are, they are not th closest. and wht will happen whn im in year2 and th current year3s have graduated and th year2s have gone for their sips? who can i find t just stone and chill? teh session? complain and bitch t? express myself? im going mad here people. andden th next year, whn im in year3 and im all stuck in th stupid sch. lg worse. huuuuuuuurgh. im so sad. this is why i love closing up myself and use my face. so tht i wunt get so attached. its hard whn im attached t people. i tend t find them. alot. yea, you can say clingy. but thts just me. sian.

okay, i just made myself even more depressed.

way t go syaza. good job. pat your head w th wall k?

okay can.

2012-01-29T16:48:00.000Z

okay, another useless post.

i think i have nth much t say t this blog because i have twtr and friends t complain t. but i'll try and update frequently still la.

yest wus fun. had a random outing w family t millenia walk or smth just t survey furnitures and i got a piggyback from daddy. tadaaa th peecha ontop. huhu. maybe i'll wear tht geekspec t sch tmr if my eyes are okay enough fr ctcs la. hee. anyways gna wear tht outfit agn tmr since its not tht dirty. heh. :/ diam uh.
yeah, i maybe turning 20 this year, but i love it whn i get piggyrides. th one on top wus random. we were abt t walk off t get a cab frm some nearby plc and i wus like 'ayaaaaah.. piggybackkkk.' and he turned and allowed me t climb. hee.

me love piggybacks as much as me lub me boyfee. ^^

anyhoos, today went parkway t buy sis's mp3, printer's ink and just have a walkabout. kinda teared out of frustration towards th end thanks t daddy.
i hate how he remembers all my bad times and love bringing it up but never sees my good days and praising me for it. im still your daughter ykno, one who craves attention and love from you. however boyish i may be, however rough, im still your daughter.
anyways, aft tht fucked up moment in th middle of parkway, i just walked off w mama trailing at th back since we are going off first t head t ibu house. aft afew songs blasted and i had my cool back, i lashed out my frustration t her as i have been doing tht these days. and she undstood. cos she knows me better these days.
around 8ish, went opp my aunt house t join th bbq party at cher's house. it wus.. okay? there i realise smth else. and tht smth else wus kinda saddening. wus sitting at th 'lepak' table which includes only isk and hans and sometimes ellie and cher would join.. and as i wus stoning in th direction of my admers, i realise i feel like an outsider eventhough im close w some of thm at certain period of time. they can connect through fashion, shopping sprees and outings and im mostly not w them. idk.. i just dunt seem t be able t feel any special bonds w any of them. however close we may be. like w cher, i hug and hold hands also but honestly, i could just abandon her anytime of th day i want. even anza. im still trying t figure out why but i just cant pinpoint t anywhr. so yup. am i a bad friend? :/
uhm yaaaaa, honestly, i wus tempted t try a sip of yknow what agn. haiyo syaza. enough is enough k.
went off alone at 9plus cos i wna show daddy tht i could keep my promises whn i meet my friends. so here i am and i hope they do wake me up for class tmr since they are sleeping over at cher's house.

k, goodnight peepur. me go stone nowz.

2012-01-26T18:07:00.000Z

hi thr(:
since im in a very uhm, storytelling mode, i'll let u into my past aight.

i had 5 before this. though i wouldnt really count them as 5. th first wus a lil confusing. u could have said we lasted 6months or 1andhalf years. though i like t say we lasted for 1andhalf years. th second one wus for only 3 months. th third and fourth were only for afew weeks and th last lasted for 11months.
now ykno why i wouldnt count em as 5? if i wus being nice, i'd say i count em as 3. if not 2.

im actually more comfortable w guys rather den girls, thus th many guyfriends. eventho i made friends w girls too, none were too close til i could declare her comfortably as my girlf. for now, i'd say i have two. one from sec sch, and one from ite. yuuuup. eventho im comfortable w guys, as time went by, i wus afraid t be real close t just a guy cos somehow, they'll fall for me. and their reasons are always similar.. they wanting t be thr for me. th troubled me tht i dint show much t th world. i grew sick and tired and even got insecure. i even lost a guy bestf because of this fear. and im still regretting it. cos he could have been th best guyf t have from my ite.

okay wait, back track abit k. lemme start from right at th beginning so u wunt be confused.

whn i entered sec1, i wus a damn tomboy and like u, i dint search for love. i dunt even kno wht love wus. my first wus just a random guy who wus in th same malay class as me. he got teased damn badly in class cos he is very quiet and blur. and as time goes by, butterflies started conquering my tummy and well, i admitted i wus crushing on him awhile aft tht. as per normal in sec sch, i got teased by those who kno and slowly, he got t kno. he's a shy guy so we dint talk much. but soon started t get close as i made more friends and netballers and soccer players got close and became a clique. frm thr, everyth started. w th help from our friends, we got t go out tgt and learn about each othr better. outings w friends, dinner aft matches and jamming sessions were all th cause of us getting close t each other. aft months of going out, he held my hands for th first time and.. i just let it be.tht wus th unofficial part. but u could say we were an unofficial official couple in our batch la. 11sept05, my birthday, i wus happy t be able t call him mine finally. we lasted about 3 months den and broke up on 28thdec due t our families threatening us and us fighting cos of pressure and lack of trust suddenly. but on th 11th apr, we patched up and things got back t normal. our final break up wus my choice because he dint talk t me for a month and i thought, w th drama going on.. why let th one u love suffer right? so i whispered t him tht we'll stay as friends. and i regretted it and cried but i think i did a good deed cos he got th girl and lasted more den 2years i think.
i like him because things were slow w him. we got t kno each othr. eventho we hanged out tgt alot, we dint talk alot. shy mah. heh. and he took time t get t kno me and i kno he wus sincere because of tht. he dint rush t hold my hand straight away or t just kiss me. nth of tht sort. whn we parted, he still called me at night just t talk because tht wus our daily routine during those past months. and i still remember clearly whn he wus singing a backstreet boys song or smth and it wus clearly meant for us and we cried til i fall asleep.

its not th full story ah but i malas abit alr la. mata like this alr ---> -.- heh.

and ya. th rest were history. because eventho i wus w thm. secretly, i tried t find my first in thm. even a tiny bit of him. even my latest one, which ended last year.. i wus still searching. and i did told my guy abt it. we actually lasted 11months because he kept insisting tht we try eventho i dint wna try. but ya. tht one stupid story ah. i dowana talk about those moments.

but yeah, because i keep showing ppl my happy side den, th guys tht i got close t used th reason and advantage of holding me so tht they could comfort me and such. i dare t say tht i think i wus a cheap ass bitch during th past. hah. t think back on how easy guys could just touch and hold on t me disgust me now. i mean yeah, ofcourse i like being hugged whn im sad and stuffs, but these guys.. they take advantage. and somewhr deep in my mind, i kno it yet i dint do anyth abt it. hah, hmm.

anyways, tht wus one ass guy i treasured in sec sch la.
in ite, my first guy bestf tht i made wus lost aft a few months of sch. tht wus my mistake because i wus stupid t get pressured and influenced by my coursemates. tht wus a gigantic mistake because well, im comfortable w him. he knows i like t blast my music t sch in th morn because im not a morning person. our greetings were just a middle finger in th air and a stare. our language mainly contains vulgarities, nonsensical jokes, laughters and more vulgarities. he knows i smoke and he'll gimme my me time w my friends during break t get out and have a puff. but yet he would just text t remind me not t smoke so much. my advice tyou, if u have a friend of th opposite gender tht u feel damn comfortable w straight away, dunt let her go. however awkward th situation may be. cos it would be hard t get them back. aft an incident, i ignored him i regretted and til now, even whn we meet. we are still awkward.

those were by far, my best guys tht i had. (not including my kaki lepak which are all mostly guys ah.)

th rest are history because they took it too far and took me for granted. well, thats wht i thought la. i mean, i hate those too mushy idiots out thr. and i hate whn they use my favourite things t kinda woo me in a mushy way. like.. thr wus this guy who asked like half th class including my teacher and his outside friends t send me a text each during vday. konon dia mcm spam wish me happy vday and uhm talk about the moon (MY BABY) and it rly sounded real mushy tht i got fucked up and ask him t get lost. cmon la, baru kenal dia da pegang my tangan seme eh. eesh. ni org baru mintak kena campak lipas tau!

in summary..
i fall randomly. i hate being too mushy. i hate tht they take advantage of me just cos i so jantan and open. i make stupid decisions. i feel cheap at times whn my mind decide t take me on a trip down memory lane. my vulgarities and roughness are just a cover so tht ppl wouldnt wna get t kno me. ppl use my weak and miserable side t take advantage. im sick and tired of being used as a rebound or a play thing.
AND IDK WHY I JUST POSTED THIS.
actually i forgot wht my main reason of posting was.
yuuuuuuup.

2012-01-24T16:51:00.004Z

THANKS ALOT AH.k i kno i perangai loser for getting mad at tht mini prank but i am mad. idk for what reason. whn i tell u tht i really am disgusted by smth, it means i rly am. which means i can do pathetic girly reactions because of it. i swear. whn i saw tht cockroach on my wall, i srsly pushed my laptop away. i swear all th tiny hair on my arms stood. and im so disgusted by it tht i feel like vomitting. as a matter of fact, my eyes are tearing. no im not crying. my eyes flooded ony ah. i hate whn people do this cos my mind put things into pictures fr me t remember and i cn remember it fr long. and its not a matter of friend or dunt friend. i'll entertain you whn th demon is safely locked in me agn. u just wait if u care uh.

im sorry but im gna ignore u til im cooled down.
yea i started th ball rollin, yea i dunt mind th pic.
i get mad at random stuffs and takes time t cool down.
live and learn boy. this is me.

2011-12-14T17:00:00.000Z

i dunt undstand why i have t clean keano's butt when im rushing my ass off for submission tomro. its almost 1am and i need my sleep too ykno. it fustrates me that they keep asking me t do it. ya i kno i havent been doing my part in taking care of th cat's litter and stuffs but cant you see im busy trying t survive in sch? trying t survive hell week? fuck. sister is not schling, enjoying her hols and staying at hm, making her butt bigger. why dunt you ask her? she doesnt even do th chores everyday la. but you believed she did jst because she said yes. th truth is, the maid has been doing her shitload and she is jst taking th fame of being a good kid. oh bloody hell. you owe me fucking 93bucks fr my sch stuffs yet you dunt pay me back and still have th guts t scold me fr finishing my f1 money in a month. dude, i used it fr sch. i dint think it will cost alot. pay me back and shut the fuck up yo. srsly. you dunt wna pay back, that just shut the fuck up and stop making me realise tht i hv no emergency money and have t think twice bfr spending. talking about money, i heard you gave sister 20bucks jst cos she accompanied mom t go shopping? you're fucking srs? if like that, pay me too. ive accompanied her t th mosque, t th clinic, t shop, t events. ive even taken your responsibility and became their bodyguards at night events jst so tht nth will happen t them while you pretend t be sick and went hm early. bloody fuck. thr wasnt even a thank you from you dude.
i kno ppl would say its small matters and such but im jst so sick and tired of being pressurised and put und th microscope jst because ive been cming hm late and not having savings. dude, its design sch. everyone stays back til late t rush for th deadline. dunt tell me you dunt undstand cos you fucking stay in th office til late too. its th same. i learn it frm you yo. and pls, stop telling me to sleep when i have assignments t finish off. its not like you dunt do th same. you stay til 5am jst doing nth, smoking and watching youtube videos. atleast im up doing smth productive k fuck.
its true wht they say. the children does take aft th parents aft all. i have a bad temper like my dad. i smoke like my dad. i stay up at night like my dad. im slacky like my dad. i cant wake up early like my dad. my whole attitude is like him and yet my parents cant undstand my needs at all.
dykno how much it hurts and how embarassing it is t get all this juicy news and tales from my own cousins. dykno how embarassing it is t let ppl notice th huge difference on how you treat your kids.
im jst so frustrated and trying t be quiet and taking all in wout complaining. but this time, i jst need t let it out. i cant let it out t anyone because i'll take hours t pour everything out. and i'll cry. so here i am, updating my blog at last.

2011-10-13T08:39:00.000Z

SNIPPZ OF REFRESH CAMP

2011-09-30T08:35:00.000Z

finally holidays are here. okay, one week of it has passed la. and im dead tired. im suppose t hibernate at hm for this week but i wus out from monday t thursday. le sigh. lucky today i rejected my aunt nicely. if not, im not here t update liao le. hahaha.
so yes, th last block wus th toughest and rushing compared t th rest. maybe tht wus cus i had t cut short my days for f1. and im still dead meat from all those lack of sleep due t rushing, f1 and workshop. yup. syaza's weakness is sleep. and if she lacks of it for a long period of time, it takes a week or more t recover. that teruk yknow. gah.
anyways, f1 wus damn fun though i work mostly w strangers. wusnt as crazy as last year but it wus still fun. got th same gate 7 as last year but different people, different supervisor. and guess what, i wus scanner most of th time. th job tht wus most fearful wus th job i had t handle fr most of th 3days. hahaha. as usual, we greeted goodbye. and due t tiredness and redbull, we got crazy. you could say we were drunk. haha. felt like a superstar w all those videos and pictures of us thanks t th patrons. ^^ here's three pichas of us, smelly and worn out:

next up: monday, subcomm workshop. yeah. started off w a running game whr anyone who gets close t me and my partner would be cursed and swear cos i wus too tired t run anywhr. andden it ended off th usual designer way. dancing our ass off and screaming our heads off. haha. before tht, we had a bbq session and it wus awesome la. design events are always awesome. ^^

so yeah. thats th big events. on tuesday, went t collect my leftover work frm sch andden teman mama t cut hair at night. wus tempted t cut bangs but resisted cos i know i would further depress my hair. and my dad wus.. supporting me. shocking. haha. wednesday, uhhhhh.. uhm.. i forgot whr i went. oh wait, went t my aunt hse, teman my mom thr. and thursday, met my precious querida t bugis t exchange her havaianas and met nas and we lepaked around tht area. wus nice. but aft tht, reached hm and knocked out. haha. so today, IM HOME. tomro, thrs day camp. ): le sigh.

aight, done my good blogger deed. back t naruto. gta catch up aft all these months yknow. heh.

2011-08-26T17:26:00.000Z

hokayz. so ze toughest block so far has jst ended. yay time to partaaay! ok no, kiddin jer. monday all hell break lose lg. le sigh.and ive been so tired these days tht im wakin up late and takin taxi most of th days. like fuuuuug, i could have save th money fr smth better sia! seriously! like buy bajuuu, food, polluted oxygennn. chaochicken betul. haing. k nehmind, getting allowance agn startin next week since its alr.. HARI RAYA. heheh. nomore starving my ass off every single day and eating more den pigs durin buka. i think i gain more den i lose yknow. not good. haha.
anyways, heard they're planning t wear baju raya t sch on wednesday. should i jst be sportin and join in? but we volunteered fr lecturers day. dunt tell me we're gna volunteer in baju raya? HAHAHA AWKWARD FUCK SIA. okay.
next.. tomro gna buka puasa w th prss bunch. wow so long neh meet thm. i hpe i wunt be too awkward la eh. hpe everyth goes smoothly and i hv a good laugh with em. miss em so much. heh. well, some la. some i not close wht right, so miss fr wht. hahaha, k kiddinz.
kay nah, lemme show some pichas t kinda sum up my time these past weeks. its gna be randomed and unarranged:

1) idea fr motif used in textmani.

2) sewn by Joan, my partner fr final proj fr textmani.

3) one of th final ideas in process.

4)my partner in th process of sewing.

5) boleh jd model tak? HAHAHA. wus tryna see if my outfit matches.

6) final batik wout th sewing. heh.

7) me w final batik.

8) final batik in sunlight.

9) one of th many samples fr batik.

10) sample fr tie dye.

11) another tie dye sample.

12) yet anthr one.

13) spammed my phne w pichas aft phtshoot fr fm. editted.

14) anthr spam and editted.

15) anthr one of th many phtos. editted.

16) i like this one best. heh. editted.

17) these 2 blackwhite ones were done so i cn use thm fr silkscreen. but th first pic silkscreen wus destroyed and it wus a waste cos it wus nice. but thr wus a part whr it wus spoilt. so hv t scrap th whole shit. the second one was a success.

will post th shirt i silkscreen anthr time k! i frgt t take picha la. anyways its nt fully dne. heh. in th process of makin it mineeeeeee.

well, thts all.
hi, imthinkingofyou.

2011-08-07T08:39:00.000Z

HI, DID I EVER MENCH THT I GOT INTO DES SUBCOMM?!

if no, well i got in! if yes, lemme be proud of myself for once la.

cos i had t go through an INTERVIEW t make it in.

and yknow me and interviews are jst.. uhhhhh. yeah.

so yes, these are ze chosen ones!

and nowwwww, for afew snapshots i took out from ze albums in fb. lovely pichas everywhr but i wus too lazy t take all. SO MANY! so i jst took afew relevant ones. credits t media peepurr! <3

one lonely pikcha frm day 1. intro and ice breaking games.

day 2: morning exercise, design style.

wus incharge of a station game w afew other members. cnt help but shared how th game looks like fr other empires!

uhmayzink raaace aft tht.

was woken up at fuckin 3am in th morn of last day fr more station games! yes, this is not night, this is mornight bitchas!

day 3: exercise agaaaain. oh and btw, we dint sleep from 3am til evening ahhhhh.

getting ready t take pikchaaa.

last game. LEMME WON! <3 L4L!

and we cheered ze tribal way for 'rain'.

L4L FTW! <3

2011-08-06T07:11:00.000Z

hi. so yes, kinda one week of fasting has past? and i broke fast earlier fr one day. i jst couldnt take it.updatesupdates:
camp was awesomeshit. hope they put up our phtos la. i wna see them!
came sch exhausted like fuck. til my classmates were saying i look like im on drugs. uhhuh tht bad.
andden family matters came along and another one gone. i dunt wna talk abt it cos i'll tear up.
nowwww doing tie dye, batik and silkscreening fr one of my modules. kinda havin fun? but these two modules are dead. and we tend t get easily exhausted somehow. we dunt know whyz. sadded.

okay, photos:

ideation-

end results-

experimenting tie dye-

2011-07-26T15:42:00.000Z

its 1130 at nightz and im waiting fr ze dress up thr. i hpe its worth my monehhhh. im scared actually. and bankrupt. -.-' sigh. i neeeeeeeeeed money. yes yes.
anyways, jst ended my project fr this block. okay, its nt really complete but 97% dne la! heh. ^^
will post up th pichas real soon. like.. tomro? maybe la. hopefully kristine likes it. fingers crossed til its break.
YAY ITS HERE! finally. wished it cme before parents came home but instead it came afew min aft they reached. gah. explained. lucky chilled.
anyways, nth much t be updated la. jst kinda dreading puasa? cos no money. boo. thts all.
update again tomro!

2011-07-03T16:04:00.000Z

hi. idk whether to be angry, upset or happy. these days, its always like tht i suppose.
anyways, daddy promised me to buy me a new phne since mine's being a bitch for quite long alr. keyword is new okay? whn we arrived just now, he suddenly saw some htc shit tht he wants and suddenly he's saying i should use his and he get tht. i mean, i dunt mind la. ive been longing for an android. but its scary to take my daddy's stuffs cos i tend to get alot of lectures. i have 'bad luck hands' i suppose. cos th things he passed to me would spoil soon enough and he'll be nagging about me not knowing how to takecare stuffs and such like tht. padehal th things were with him for quite some time la. anywaaaaaays, he asked me to think while we wait ah. andden i told mama like i dunt wna take cos of.. blahblahblah lah. and daddy was saying okay get your own la. whichever i want. anddennnnnn.. whn.. we were at th counter thing.. he suddenly say, okay ah our deal on ah? and me being me, i just said okay la. -.- hey, his temper is scary okay and i dunt wna spoil th happy mood. i'd rather keep everything from them and see them happy. anyways, i think he made a good deal la. he got th new phne and he changed my plan to data plan. sweet right? thts just th only thing im happy about. wanted him to chnge tonight. we reached home only, he said.. darling can wait kan? no need tonight kan? and i just went ah. and quickly went up before my temper got th best outta me. got th cheek to ask if i was mad. sheesh. -.- knowing him, he will reallyyyyyyy take his time. sigh. and here he is near me, playing with his new phne. chaochicken. kay da. im done nagging.

2011-07-01T13:27:00.003Z

this was from ze only outing i had with friends during ze holiday. aft tht i was too lazy to ask permission and go through shit to just get out. and.. it was okay la. th failed kite flying, dinner and movie.

note to self: never ever attack, smash cake or dare a guy anything. i keep forgetting tht they dunt treat me like a lady and would chase th hell outta me to make me pay back. i ran for my life aft so long sia on tht day thanks to this soontobe NSboy.

anyways, glad sch's starting this monday. im kinda aimless during my holiday. le sigh. back to facebook and maybe editting pictures. tomro, i heard mama have some durian feast shit and she's allowing us to go for a swim. i hope we can. atleast i get to exercise for a bit. and whn am i getting a new phne like wht he promised? i cant wait. ^^v

2011-06-25T16:30:00.000Z

hi, for now, i dunt give a fuck if this isnt a private blog. i just wna rant it all fuckin out. its my blog, so dunt be so judgemental cos its suppose to be filled with wht i really feel or think. fuck.
who do you guys think i am? ive been fuckin patient, getting all th naggings and shit. even whn i was fuckin tired and stressed up with my final week, i patiently endured and tried not to be rude to you all. but ive promised myself tht once holidays start, i'll help out here and there. and fuckin hell, i dare to shout it out loud tht i fuckin do th house chores. i cleaned my cupboard. i cleaned my room. i fuckin cleaned your bed. even a simple task of cleaning your bed whn you wake up is impossible issit huh mr? i vacuumed. vacuumed alot. i cleaned th cat plc. i fuckin gave them food. i cleaned their shit if i can bear it. i wash all th laundry. i made drinks for you. i prepare dinner. i wash th dirty utensils. i set up laptops for you two bitches. i put it back for you guys. and STILL?! i cant fuckin have some alone time on my fuckin laptop in peace. i'd be nagged at for not washing off th cups you all drank in, for not completing th fuckin laundry, i'd be nagged at just cos you see me lazying around or waking up late.
WHAT FUCKIN MORE YOU WANT FROM ME?! ive cleaned, ive controlled my temper and my tongue, i havent been rude. my patience has a fuckin limit yknow. and this house contains 4 people, 3 of them are girls. so why, everything, ME?! you fuckin have 2 daughters. ask her to do some fuckin chores la! why wunt you scold her whn she forgets smth?! oh pls, dunt gimme th old 'sad' reason of her brain being slower than ours. fuck this house. really. fuck everything.

DA?!
kda. :/

2011-06-23T07:28:00.000Z

hi, wanted to show a pic of me currently. but.. lazy ah. im drinking oreo ice blend and smoking like a wasted child at home. watching korean movies. watching coffee prince right now. th show tht i first watched and cried my heart out. thank God im not crying again.
these days, yknow wht ive been thinking about? you. yeah you. i dunt know why, even aft having 4guys aft you, th time spent with you is th most prominent one in my head. stupid fool aye? ahah. how's spongebob doing these days? still huggable? or did it die on you? hah. yes, ferysha's still stuck on me. it just grows on me la. even my parents are somehow stuck onto it. suprising eh? how long has it been since we parted? uhm, 3? 4 years? somewhr there. and how long has tht name been wimme? 4, 5years? maybe 6? idk la. we're not even sure how long we actually dated. thats kinda funny huh.

when you gna meet me? we're in th same sch yknow. have a smoke break wimme one day okay? yeah i know it'll be awkward.. but you did say to meet up soon. you always avoid me. is th awkwardness tht bad? kata jer miss. sepak kan forehead baru tau!

anyways, i remembered these suddenly:

' syaza, i really love you

the only one for me is you.

although we may not be together

but i will love you forever.

i hope you are my wife to be

but our love is what i cant forsee.

you really are the one for me.

I LOVE YOU.

mepek sey.

[ 140806]

' syaza i love you.

i cant live without you.

without you i have no world

you are really a wonderful girl.

my love for you is always there

look at me, dunt give me a stare.

you are the special one

thats why i chose you to be my only one.

i love you!
ahahaha.
[150806]

you wrote them for me, remember? haha. so chiutz. mintak kena forehead smack.

and i wrote these, whn times were bad for us. whn it ended:

' memories flood through
as im staring at you.

we started a year or two ago
friends at first
lovers at last.

as the book flip along
i wrote down each chapter; its a must
wondering how long we were to last.

i still feel hurt as i remember
the painful ending last december.

oh, how i cried and slashed
feeling depressed.

i thought; its over.
oh wait, you admitted that you still love me.
i waited faithfully
yet all i felt was envy.

why?

cos you went with that lady.

atfirst, i pretended.
told everyone i was mended.
yet, all i did at night was cry
as i realise i was living a lie.

that's when you came back
to cure the heart attack. [ -.- ]
it was all just beautiful
until i created a disaster, imma fool.
that's when the trouble came
and i was the one to be blamed.

i end this chapter
as imma lousy writer.
not knowing a happy ending
and tired of pretending.

so, here we are
strangers again by far.

' i felt that something was amissed
and i settled it as my birthday wish.
a wish that i know cant be fulfilled
yet my stubborn head wont let it be dismissed.

so here i am, thinking about it all month
and it wasnt any fun.

and the wish i made

is to have ___ back, i said.

' the words you last said
is stuck in my head.

i couldnt get it out
and only i knew what it's about.
you told me without a doubt
and all i did was to joke about.

i took it lightly
thinking about it only slightly.

i wish i didnt
cos now my heart's broken
as you have taken you leave
leaving me be.

my life without you feels empty

and asking for a patch is quite tempting.

now i wish i could hug you tight
not caring about the obsessive sight.'

ahah. hi silly boy, i miss you la. still do even aft all these years.
i could write a book about our times. damn dramatic. haha.
you said i wasnt thinking about you, you're wrong. you are always on my mind.
thats th truth.

2011-06-22T08:46:00.002Z

THEFUCK. why cant i post tht picture?!alright. yesterday went out.
failed outing at marina barrage. got lost heading to dhoby ghaut. watched the ward.
kda.

2011-06-16T09:44:00.000Z

FINALLY IM HAVING A BREAK. a 2weeks break. pathetic. but still a break.

last block was bearable. fun. tiring. stayed in sch til 11 mostly to lepak and do my work. made more friends. got paint at every outfit i wore to sch thanks to 2DARTFUN. below is a sneak peek of wht ive done for th whole month. enjoyz.

picture 1&2: Happy faces of DC26 after our morning class. with our cute lecturer, Wilson, aka Ze Frog. Surrounded by our 1by1 finals.

picture 3&4: a trip to SAM with our aftnoon lecturer. theme of outfit for tht day is bright striking colours and shadessssss. enjoyed our day as a class cos we dint have to watch old movies for 3hours.

picture 5&6: my 1by1 artwork. title still unknown. but some suggestion were given. chao chicken and hypocrite being th two popular ones. its not perfect, but.. im proud of it! am so gna bring it home whn th time comes. yay me.

THATS ALL FOLKS.

2011-05-23T17:04:00.003Z

!#$%^&*

kinda pissed off.

okay, just a lil.

okay, maybe alot.

idk la, im just freakin stress cos i dunt seem to undstand.

and to top it all, im having my reds.

wonderful. beautiful.

crying.

2011-05-22T16:17:00.000Z

Snapshot of some of th survivors of first block. Haha. 21st May marked th end of first block. so we celebrated by having a OHA bbq whr we were suppose to bond and do stupid shit tgt. but knowing me, it was hard. but i had fun thanks to those crazy close ones. it was a great day and night well spent.
well, gna start a new crazier block in afew hours time. wish me luck on my survival rate! :D

2011-05-19T04:40:00.000Z

A few snapshots of graduation night from my camera. Dint really snapped alot since we had nana's dslr. which is a better choice den any dig cameras. ahah. so yes.. some few pathetic shots. dint manage to get our shots with th certs. anyways, aft th nerve wrecking ihavetogouponstageinfrontofsomanyppl, we kinda bitched and laughed alot. got to meet all those ppl i miss. some IEIans, two of Dopekids, Blicious and even Ms Becks and Mr Faris. yup, i was a happyhappy girl. i hope th rest upload their pictures fast so i could snatched them. heh.

Aft grad, we headed to Holland V, Swensens to grab late dinner since Becks was hungry. and th boys wna meet up. but in th end, only 2 of them showed up. Xun and Clement. -.- but we still enjoyed our time. Me mostly laughing my ass off uh. Thanks to nana, zoomed back home in a racing cab.

Thts allllll. I hope i get to meet thm again soon uh. They planned to meet this Sat, but i have OHA chalet. boohoo. well, maybe next time, soon. (:

2011-05-16T17:04:00.000Z

THAT PICTURE UP THR IS DEDICATED TO MY CURRENT LECTURER. SHE'S A CONFUSED CHILD. PITY HER. SHE CANT MAKE UP HER MIND. SHE WANTS US TO BE INDEPENDENT, YET SHE WANTS TO GUIDE US. AND SHE IS.. INDECISIVE. SHE DINT HELP ME A SINGLE BIT DURING THIS PAST 3WEEKS. BUT NOW, MY FINAL WEEK, SHE SAYS MY WORK IS TOO.. CORNY? SMTH LIKE THT. AND SHE KINDA ASKED ME TO REDO TH FUCKIN WHOLE THING. THEFUCK. SERIOUSLY. I ALMOST CRIED. AND I HAVE NO FUCKIN MOOD TO CHANGE MY STUFFS. COS IVE FINISHED EVERYTHING. FUCKIN COMPLETED EVERYTHING, AND NOW SHE'S ASKING ME TO CHANGE TH FUCKIN WHOLE THING. WHAT'S HER PROBLEM. OKAY, IM GNA DIE TOMRO. TRYING TO PLS HER. LET'S DIE.

2011-05-09T12:56:00.000Z

hiiiiiiiiiiiii(: i have nth much to say. heh. just sharing afew pichas with you on how's sch like these days.

have fun with your days. :D

2011-04-04T17:31:00.002Z

today, eh wait, i meant yesterday.. monday. was suppose to teman bogeh cat to some polys to appeal. buuutttt, i woke up to his text saying mama was with him. so i backed out eventhough his mama wanted me thr. idk for wht reason. ahah. shy la syaza. ^^v
anyhoos, changed th plans and he decided to meet at cityhall aftwards. so yes, i was halfhour late. mcm tak biasa jer kan. heh. met, and headed to marina sq cos i was gna meet barbie to pass her badges and cert. so yup. while waiting, we walked. and we ended up deciding to watch rango. bought th 5oclock ticket. aaaannd decided impromptu-ly to play bowling. yup. (: man, i really regretted wearing a dress by den. haha. so anyways, played just one game. cos we felt like playing arcade. changed about 8bucks? to just play one shooting game. bahaha. met barbie outside. and went for a huffabreak. well, we huffa and he got busy on th phone lah. haha. oyes, busybusy. headed in for ze movie soon. and laughed like almost th whole movie lah.
aft tht, he got damn hungreh. but we walked to marina bay sands instead. was suppose to eat somewhr thr i think. but instead, he took me on a tour. a walk anywhr kinda tour actually. haha. and we talked. kinda alot. whn we finally decide to head back to eat, i had to go home for mama. :/ i felt guilty actually. cos by den he cant feel his tummy alr. or so he said. haha. he managed to send me til und th block and reached home without fainting of hunger. hah. and i left him drinking with friends. and im playing game here. haha.

oh yeah, did i mentioned he paid for everything? -.- even whn im suppose to pay for arcade, he got excited and changed his own money. annoying cat.
oh another thing. i think. i realise. this was an accidentlymeetupdate.

2011-04-01T08:44:00.000Z

hi all. yesterday and today were days tht i could have gotten heartattacks. but th only thing i did was to cry. so yeah.
yesterday, ITE results were out. and i got B for all 3subjects. with a current GPA of 3 and cumulative GPA of 2.873. which is not much different from my previous GPA: 2.822. see th pathetic difference? -.- so yeah.
today, th day tht i really hate came. and i got into a course tht i dint ask for. and would never thought of joining. i got into TP, Apparel Design and Merchandising. basically, its about fashion design. thefuck. i avoided tht for my O's and now, im in a course tht does tht. Events to Fashion design aye. fucking no link.
but whatevs la. since im lazy to appeal and my parents are happy about it, i'll just stay. yeah, my mom laughed her ass off on the phone and my dad did a YAY! on th phone. so yes. since they're satisfied, i'll try my best in this course.
kay, and my sch starts late eh. 25th. idk wna be happy or depressed. well, bye.

2011-03-22T14:25:00.000Z

fairies: spent monday night drawing tht. and colouring it on tuesday morning.

eh hi, its been sososo long since ive updated. heh. finally holiday's here but parents are finding it hard at keeping their promises i suppose. its heartbreaking and annoying. i just hope i can go to th chalet they paid for for me. -.- spent th holidays waking up late. like, 2plus. boring. everyone is busy. and idk whr to go lah. yeahh.
da kay bye.

2011-03-04T16:10:00.000Z

hi. i know i need to update this blog. but i have nth much i can say.

so yeah. goodluck to us for next week's exams.

and holiday, we miss you. we're coming for you.

see you soon, whoever.

2011-02-18T13:09:00.000Z

hiiiiiiiiiiii(:

kay my blogs would be less picturepicture from now on cos my laptop alr died dude. ):

anyone wna buy me one? hehe.

anyways, today was awesome. i swear.
firstly, i nailed both my presentations. kay la, PJMS not really cos i got lazy and literally read most from my script. den me and ema ko-ed soon aft tht while waiting for th class to end. had lunch with th girls and headed to tamp aft making some transfer thingy for some plain skirt. (: so yeah. met baraq and cocked alot like usual. met qim efah and syila. yusuf came and we headed to pr.. to get stuck thr cos it was fuckin raining and we cannot lepak at our usuals. headed to MacDee cos yusuf goodrambut owe me fries and a drink for being late but i got hungry and wanted a meal. and he paid for me. aw so chiutzxzx. and i blanjaed baraq McFlurry. hurhur. -.-v aft sharing all those stuffs among us, we wanted to head down to catch yusuf a cab.. and we met amirul. and headed to a very far block which he claimed was near. -.- aku sepak dahinya. really. and atlast we lepaked thr til kak mar fetched me. suppose to head for parkway but ended up at tamp mall. uhm, i bought this sketch book tht looks like a fuckin thick book. heh. i wna start sketching once again! :D and i bought a book to write all my money stuffs in thr. time to save up.
test is on wednesday and im not studying. sheesh. dying lor. (:

2011-02-05T10:09:00.001Z

FINALLY IM IN.

i forgot which email and password i used for this stupid blog.

i got th right email and wrong password.

i got th wrong email and right password.

whatthefuck is wrong wimme. -.-

anyways, chinese new year was awesome. i have 116bucks. of which im left with 106.
and i placed 100bucks in my account. though its of no use cos i saw some stuffs i wna get.
smth for daddy. smth for myself. well, not smth but some thingS whn it comes to me. hoho. man, my hands are itching to spend. help? :/ but for daddy, tht surprise is a must. hehe.

i feel like shitting right now and i have a sudden migraine again. whatthehell is wrong wimme these days? sigh.

and im still waiting for th chinese new year pictures from daddy. man, i think asking for a hundred bucks is easier den asking him for pictures sia. and i miss my laptop whr i can play my facebook games freely. this computer can buang. games cannot play. boo. ):

alright, thats all for now.

and i wonder whr is faree.

2011-01-28T06:13:00.000Z

i hate medications. it makes me too weak.

i have exams to study for and tasks to finish.

dear body, please recover fast so tht my brain can fully function without groggyness.

best regards,

syaza ferysha.

2011-01-22T16:18:00.002Z

HAQIMAH! SUKA TUKARTUKAR LINK?! hahaha. hi bie. (:

and im gna MIA alot now.

exams are cming. HAHAHA, like real.

but thts not th reason.

its cos my fucking laptop is freaking spoilt and dying.

kay goodnight.

2011-01-12T13:02:00.000Z

pfft.

i knew it was too good to be true,

running a project so smooth.

now problems arise out of the blue,

only a week left, no time to goof.

HAHAHA! is there sucha a word, goof?! -.-

kay but really. thts some story, so true.

2011-01-05T16:13:00.000Z

eh hiiiiiiiiiiii. (: finally, another update from me. huhu. ive been thinking and making my mind work double hard to think of wht to blog, but i dint know. but thanks to these bitches, i have smth to blog about. so give thm a round of applause. standing ovation! HAHAHA! -.-v
today, i found out tht my best bitch, th one with th evil eye in th second pic, still reads my blog. yup, this blog. aw, sweet right? hehe. i dint know anyone was reading my posts. i thought i bore everone to death alr. heh.

OKAY, ANYWAYS~

been meeting this bitches for two days this week. monday was an impromtu meet up so we slacked und th block and i was updated about people from my past. i have to admit, im kinda jealous tht they're still so close to each other manz. i think i have to psycho my parents to move to tampines so i can meet thm aft sch or smthhhh. yes, thts it. hahaha. if not tampines, den pasir ris. den my best bitch would be cursing me alot cos confirm i'll be asking her to come down to pasir ris alot. ;) hehe. kay, enough about daydreams.
today, i was suppose to slack with thm and syafiq. i think. but since we temaned efah to somerset for IPhone repair and was near town area, they decided to make me a non-virgin to shisha. haha. yes, they unvirgined me from shisha alr. whoo. i dint really feel th greatness, but it was fun. :D we should do it whn th blue moon appears again. ^^v hehe. so ya, aft sending them to mrt, i headed off to wheelocks borders with kak mar. whn walking through borders to get to an ATM machine, i finally saw awakened. kak mar had to drag me out of thr before i went crazy. and now, im happy cos i spent 36bucks on two books! yay me! :D

TO MY BEST BITCH;QIM

THANKYOU FOR MEETING ME THESE TWO DAYS.

you made my holiday awesome.

sayang pantat kau! haha.

2011-01-03T05:20:00.002Z

GNA MEET MY BIEBABIBITCH IN AWHILE!

CANT WAIT! MISS HER LIKE HELL! :D

2011-01-01T06:58:00.000Z

kay, firstly, mind th at-home-face and hair look. haha.

anyways, IM BAAAAAAAAAACK! :D from vietnam tht is. (: and these were th stuffs i bought for meself. well, except for th keychains. anyone wants them? tell me kay. heh. cos idk who to give la. so yeah. i had fun and blah lah lah. im lazy to talk about it. BUT IT WAS AWWWWWWWEEESOME~
oh wait, not everything was bought. th buttercup thingy, i got it on th plane. i asked for th toy cos saw some small kid holding it. hehe. yeah! more buttercups fer me! ^^v
alrights, im done updating. another one week and boring life will be back. -.-

2010-12-24T06:44:00.000Z

alright, th first week of my holidays are coming to an end since its already FRIDAY! :D yeah! A.L.I.F - Alhamdulillah Its Friday! :D and its also th eve of christmas. mama's not working, but daddy is. and i heard he have some company dinner thing going on later. aw man, no going out is it? :/

there are so many people tweeting about a flea market aaaaattt haji lane? i think. i feel like dragging mama thr to shopshopshop. or maybe just look around. heh. but nah, she wunt want to go.

kay, my first week of holidays were basically spent at home. well, mostly la.

but tuesday, th guys came over just to chill. which guys?

Danial Fitri, Zully Raver and Zakifly Charms.

YES, ZAKU CAME TO MY HOUSE. shocking aye.

played monopoly and watched old cartoons. it was a relaxing funny time with them la.

thanks dudes for cming to teman me at my boring house. ^^v

wednesday, hmmm. oh i dreamt i had kfc and i straight away asked bibik if she wna go but she doesnt. i still had my kfc though. with kak mar and musa, before ngaji! :D yumyum. they paid for it whn i was suppose to belanja them. -.- anyways, thankyou!

okay, well, thursday was a different story la. i was able to go out since i had a project meeting with th Dopeys. yup. but i went out earlier to meet Monster before th project. and thank God i met him. cos i dint know how to get to th place by myself and th girls were kinda late. ya.

so we met and had lunch at KFC! yes, KFC for syaza again! :D and aft tht, headed to th river to lepak. asked him to pinjam his sister's camera for us to snap afew of ourselves. but sadly, thanks to th holiday crowd, i got embarrassed since we self timer and people have to wait for us to snap a shot before they can walk and such. soooooooo, th album mostly contains pictures of my silly faces. thanks to th Monster himself.

iloveyou kay, YOGIster. alotalot kay! :D

anywayssss, after th girls came, we two separated. he was gna have KFC dinner with mama pulak. hahaha. so yes, sat at Starbucks with th girls and did our project. ofcourse there were some sidetracking, but i was impressed with them since we got most of th work done. now, we're left with some research and we're kinda done! whooo for us! :D so yes, we got hungry and headed to Macs near Raffles there. man, i dint know tht place exist. haha. so yes, like always, our voices were th loudest in Mac. had fun eating with them but i was kinda nervous with th time so i kinda kept to myself alot. sorry girls. but, true to their words, they made me reach home at exactly 930. thankyou eh. (:

so yes, overall, i had a fun time during this one week.

next week, im heading to Vietnam with my family.

YAY! this holiday is awesome. :D

2010-12-18T16:18:00.000Z

HI! ON THE 18TH OF DECEMBER, 2010,

WE THE LIM SIBLINGS DID A HAIR CHANGE.

AND WE'RE LOVING IT! :D

2010-12-15T06:22:00.000Z

eh hi(:

all lessons were cancelled today, so its a stay home for me. (:

see those stuffs above? th first 3 pictures. they're stuffs i bought. there's th dreamcatcher necklace. atlast, i got to keep it after purchasing it for so long. the glow cups were a waste of money. i bought it for th fun of it. :D daddy broke th green one eventhough tht was nicer den th pink. oh manz. :/ th galaxy light thingy, im gna own it on th 3rd of jan next year! gna buy it with faree. costs 16 bucks man. haha. im gna go bankrupt soon with all this spending! alright, thts gna be my final purchase. den nomore!

I, SYAZALINA LIM, WILL NOT SPEND ANYMORE ON STUFFS UNLESS THE MONEY IS FROM HER PARENTS. SHE WOULD CONTINOUSLY DIG GOLD AND SAVE IT SO THT SHE CAN BE RICH NEXT YEAR. okay. ^o^v

anyways, tuesday was a lazy day.

went to sch early just to choose songs and laugh at idiots. yup. 11 til 3. headed to town after tht to collect my dreamcatcher necklace and bought sample stuffs for th project. girls, th cups are abit hard. but whn it glows, its awesome. th green one is superb. th pink one no use. th colour is just too soft to attract attention. ya.

tht laser galaxy thing would be mine in less den a month! :D kay, im so sexcited. i havent told my YOGIster yet. :/ i hope he's not too angry with me spending my money just like tht. haha. AND YES, while we were at Plaza Sing, i begged pirated barbie and YOGIster to watch th YOGIbear show! hehe. it was funnnnnn and cute. ^^v

MUST WATCH THE VIDEO KAY?!

have fun!

2010-12-13T13:36:00.000Z

hi bloggees. ive just returned from eunos mrt to transfer th money to some blogshop. i was so excited tht i went straight aft th confirmation. whn i returned home, thr was mail saying th amount tht they placed was wrong. -.- i transfered $36 whn it was suppose to be $40plus. cos they misread th normal or registered postage part. well, i was lazy to transfer again, so im risking normal postage. i hope it comes safely into my letterbox. :/ cross fingers tightly manz.

well yeah, my weekend was fun i suppose. friday, went to watch narnia and i begged daddy to buy th YOGIbear popcorn set so i could get my hands on th cute bread notebook. heh. narnia is awesome. i swear. go watch it! :D

saturday was spent drenched at pasir ris beach with family. had some bbq tht parent's friends organised. it was DISorganised. i swear. and th sudden downpour made my flu muchmuch worse.

sunday was spent at mummy's house. kenduri arwah and family gathering. yup.

today, skipped sch. :/ but tomro, i'll be back in action at ITE Bishan! :D

hahahaha. kay, im lame.

well, back to facebook and tumblr.

nightynights. ^^v

2010-12-08T14:46:00.000Z

today was dead. i mean sch. first and second lesson cancelled. third lesson was a test, and knowing my class, we took only minutes to finish th test. so yeah. lepaked and waited for twin and syahz. went for training, semangat. checkcheck, gym only. -.- ran 2.4 on th thingything and had some chest pain. but pressed myself to pull afew other things. we all got bored and hungry, so headed to j8. everyone was lazy to bath. haha. planned to eat KFC, but it was still closed. atlast, slacked at outdoor and i had KOI, YAMIyoghurt and OCK chicken. yummy~ went home with twin. wah, so long neh go home with her. poured my heart out. hope she dint mind. :/ now im doing my usual routine with some chest pain.
tomro, im gna suffer in th auditorium listening to some talk about th future. dead and gone manz.

can i not go sch tomro? -.-

2010-12-04T13:37:00.002Z

does this look familiar? ;)

well, if you've been reading, you would realise tht ive lost my moon necklace. so i bought meself a new one on thursday.
thursday was spent with monster til night. supposed to have dinner with th netballers but it was cancelled at th very last minute. decided to not go home and followed monster to town to walk around and meet zul, anneh and friend. since we were in town, he decided to bring me to heeren to show me th beads and stuffs shop. so went and i got crazy in thr thanks to all th dreamcatchers hanging around with all th pretty pretty stuffs. next, we went to th shop tht sells more prettypretty stuffs. thts whr i bought th necklace. OH WAIT, I BOUGHT A NECKLACE IN TH OTHER SHOP TOO. A DREAMCATCHER NECKLACE. hehe. in this shop, i bought th moon necklace and i bought a heart necklace for my sister. th colour so pretty i feel like having it for myself. its really rick purple with a blue dot in th middle if light was shone through it. lovely lovely. ^^v i think tht was all i spent uh.
on friday, FINALLY finished my madrasa exams in th morning. met and slacked with dan at bishan. bought for kak mar a birthday present. a weekly planner thingy. so cute yknow. mcm nak amik. haha.

AND TODAY SUCKS. YAY.

2010-11-26T12:00:00.001Z

FUCK THESE FEW WEEKENDS.

i hope tomorrow is better.

2010-11-25T13:35:00.003Z

gyeah, 251110! :D

woke up in th morning and quickly got ready to meet me monsterooooo~!

met at bugis cos i wanted to get me frog coinpouch and uhm, he wanted to watch harry potter. huhu. so yeah, headed to iluma and bought ze tickets first. damn, he was so excited. haha. den we walked around and ATLAST i found tht frog pouch in one of ze anime shops. WOW THAT SHOP MAKES ME CRAZY. so filled with naruto stuffs. th costume, th knifes, th kunai, th head gear, th ANBU masks, th huge kunais and weapons, alotalot lah! can go crazy sia. cbbbbbbbb! haha. i must safe monehhhh and go thr shop like crazy! hahaha. ^^v

aft th movie, we headed to bugis junction and i forced him to take neoprints wimmeeeeeeee! heheheh. and see thr, he layaned me. ^^v i so love this monster. huhu. aft tht we dint know wht to do and just walked around and around and aroundaroundaround. wanted to head to somewhr else but it was raining. dammit. hee. so roundroundround we went til its time to go home. oh no, before tht, i spent 5bucks on some cheap arcade for kids. damn fun i tell you! but everyone mcm tengok kita ah. hahaha. i got push pop and eraser in exchange for th tickets. -.-v

oh, boyfriend cook for me cos he budget. hehe. nicenice. roti telur, roti with telur and hotdog with telur. yumyum. i got to bring back th hotdog telur. heheh. everyone ate. (:

2010-11-23T16:04:00.002Z

haha, see tht face up thr? ^

he's eyes got painful after i snapped loads of picture with flash.

irritating face, as always.

TAKE PROPER PICTURE SOON OKAY MONSTER! -.-

heartshape

2010-11-22T13:10:00.002Z

im in a mood for creativity. itching to scrapbook. :/

2010-11-19T13:07:00.002Z

hi, its friday night. hmm.

i just feel like th week flew past me. or maybe thts just cos ive been sleeping alot and not attending sch. maybe huh. hmm.

was hoping we could go out, but damn, tht stupid sister chose today for tuition. i mean, cmon man! its friday! hahaha. kay im talking loads of cock here cos im waaaaaaaay to bored. i swear. th only noise i could hear is th grr grr grumbling of my alr full tummy while its making th washing machine turns. haha. kay, im lying. i can hear th cars and th radio and ofcourse, th taptaptap of my keyboards.

ohhhhhhh, im getting okay-er with me techdeck. heheh. thanks boyfriend! :D

kay game time. nighty nights.

2010-11-18T15:36:00.003Z

hehe, hi. (: had no sch today (declared officially) and went to meet th usuals at th usual spot. i mean, we dint know whr else to go la. being broke and such. haha. so yeah. but it was a lil different from usual cos atira, zen, monster and i went to makan at j8 food junction. NASI AYAM PENYET! whoo. den we walked around j8 and bought KOI! yummy yumz. deeeeeen we headed to th block to meet th rest. yup. AND MONSTER SENT ME HOME. aft a long time. heheh. (;

well, reached home and tht was th first thang i did. cos sister had a new pair of shades. haha. so clicksnapboomzx went my phone and we had quite afew pictures. editted, and voila! part of it are here.
well, i had a great day. hope you blogees too. :D
nights.

oh, and below is my new haircut. actually new fringecut. just cut th fringe. it wasnt really what i expected but owell, hair grows. ^^v

2010-11-15T13:39:00.002Z

fuckin hell. i got home to get scolded. thanks so much dad. like you're any better. fuck you dude. cmon, mama isnt angry just cos of us. she's angry cos noone accompany her to th mosque. like is she stupid or what? is she th one who complained tyou? or are you just blasting your shit to us cos she's angry at you? i bet its th second one cos you and your fucking ego will always wna win. stupid. cmon, you guys said tht if my class starts early, i could fuckin miss th monday classes. and i was honest whn i said tht i start early. now you wna find fault wimme just cos im on th net? bullshit. mama is angry cos YOU, yes you dad, dint go for classes. like we dunt know. i know you hate it. we'll see. you will be on th net as soon as you've bathed and had your dinner. think we dunt know? so why you tryna blame me for not following her? ive got fuckin sch. i start early tomro. whats your fuckin prob? you wna blame sister, find go ahead cos she's on holiday and she was being told to follow from th start. it wasnt my fault tht my sister is becoming a worst bitch tht i am. you dunt have to pick on me too right? FUCKIN HELL. i know tht if its possible, you wouldnt wna attend those classes too. faggot. think kids are stupid nowadays or what? bullshit. you ruin my fuckin mood old man. you dint wna scold her. you direct everything to me. and whn she's being a bitch, you'll find me to make lame jokes and hit me like im a guy who can take any amount of punches during a joke. hurgh. why must this day come to a stupid end like this. CHEEBYE.

on a brighter side, monster is back. and he bought me some gifts. thanks. (: i really appreciate it alot. really. im sorry im not expressing it here. just too angry. goodnight blogees. hope you're having a better time den me. (:

2010-11-14T15:49:00.001Z

so okay, baby's baaaaaaaack! :D

im so looking forward to tomro. not cos i get to see him. cos he bought me presents! :DD HAHAHA! kay im kidding. ofcourse i wna hug my monster and squeeze his cheeks and bite his nose! huhu. im suddenly freaking hyper. seriously.

got home from mosque and i did a impromtu dance with my 10bucks and sister kept asking me to do tht stupid move twice infront of my parents. den she ask me to do it all around our room. annoying much? haha.

2010-11-14T06:28:00.002Z

thehundreds.com is making me a lil crazy. i wna go shopping soon. i need money. how can i save up? how can i get extra income? anyone needs a babysitter or a photgrapher? okay, maybe a lil notsoperfect drawings? (:

f1 money, where are youuuuuuu? :/

2010-11-12T13:59:00.002Z

i woke up. i felt breathless. i drank hot water. you woke me up. babygees woke me up. class cancelled. i slept, til th aftnoon. bathed and ate. i had missed calls. you called. (: played games. tumblr. kept sending msges tyour singapore's number. tweeted. tweet ALOT at your number. restless. bored. youtubed about jaden and willo smith. ate again. got angry. threw afew tears. read afew paragraphs of betrayed. checked on my game. retweet. watched episodes of naruto. blogging. gna find movie to watch. and yet, its still 1005pm on friday.

GGRAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. IM GRUMPY AND YOU ARE NOT HERE TO TURN TH FROWN BACK UP.

what th fuck is wrong with me these days. its so unlike me. im sorry.

2010-11-12T08:29:00.003Z

this trip is so wrong. haha. whn im in my superduperhyperhyper-iwnamanja-mode, you had to go and celebrate with your team. DAMN! haha.

im glad you called. though it was dumb of you to waste money go buy a number just to call me, i still appreciate it. its just th beginning but i know tht time will pass fast. well, i hope. :D

2010-11-11T16:16:00.003Z

ITS TH 8TH HAPPY12 TO US IRRITATING MONSTER! :D
counting down th hours til i meet you on monday!

2010-11-11T14:48:00.002Z

hi bloggees. see tht that guy here ^? thats my personal irritating monster. (:

i love him to bits and pieces and sometimes, you'll see me biting him asthough im literally gna tear him to bits and pieces. heh. imma vampire. ^^v anyways, yeah.

we've been tgt for what, 7months i suppose. tomro, i mean another hour til th 8th. (heartshape) time do fly by so fast with this irritating monster beside me. i swear. i mean, we have our ups and downs but i love every single moments with him. he's kinda like my bestfriend plus my brother tht i never had and a special one. there was a break for afew weeks. and it was all my fault. now tht he has given me a chance back, i'll promise not to let him go tht easily anymore. he's too precious. he's th one i'll find when i have problems. he's th one i'll find when smth funny happens. he's th one i whacked to vent my anger. he's th one i hugged to cry my heart out. he's th one i scream and laugh with. he's th one. that's just it i suppose. :D

aaaaaannnd im gna miss tht for 3 pathetic days. starting from tomro. boo. he's gna head to msia with his soccer team as they were th champions of th htwoo cup. damn, i should have prayed tht he lost. HAHA. kidding monster. ^^v

hey, have a safe trip to and fro alright? be crazy be wild but not stupid. set? (: spend all out ON YOURSELF and dunt worry about me. its th weekends, my family will takecare of me. dunt forget to eat medicine for your knee alright, cacat? haha. i have nth much to say actually. hmm, oh, sorry i cant send you off tomro morning eh. i dunt even know if i can wake up for my classes or not. haha. well, text me whn you're going off and entering msia alright. im missing you already. i love you irritating one. forehead kiss and nose bite okay? many heartshape for you.

2010-11-10T13:12:00.003Z

kay, these were th snapshots taken for birthday kelly's birthday before we separated. :Dwell, today was okay i suppose. rushed to sch. thanks babygees for waiting for me! oh and thanks to zen too! :D haha.

honestly, wasted time going to sch cos th first lesson, th teacher practically read from th slides which were printed in our books. might as well just ask us to silent read. -.- den we had our own self break before second class. AIRCON! but thts th only best thang. cos apparently, this teacher has issues with our group. keep singling us out. we dint talk and yet she threatened us, saying tht if our group continued talking, she'll shut th aircon. WHATTHEFUCK SERIOUSLY?! and yup, favouritism seems to be back. but whatevers.

we're still dope. -.-v

slacked with atira zen sisqa and ira. yes, ira slacked with us. like WHOA. huhu. and its been long since i slacked with them. heh. talked cock and bullshit. stuffs tht we usually do.

DANIAL FITRI, YOU BECAME A GOODY BOY AT ZE WRONG TIME DUUUUUUDE. haha.

yenywaaaaaaaays, thts my day la.

chickawix! be strong okay? (: just bersabar. if not, just fuck th shit and get lost. heh. anything, we're here manz. get tht in your prettyhead okay? lovelove.

2010-11-09T13:38:00.002Z

maaaaaan, ive been here for half an hour and i couldnt recall what i wanted to post about. haha.
but one thing's for sure. i loved today. sorry babygs, i ditched you guys for monster. wunt happen too often. but i just wanted a day with just him aft so long of not doing just tht. i hope you girls arent tht mad wimme. alright. if not, just voice it out. but not face to face pls. :/ imma coward.

anyhoo, was thinking of cutting my fringe. should i? was thinking of curling me hair. if daddy allows. should i? sigh. idk wht to do with me hair manz.

2010-11-08T14:35:00.004Z

hi bloggeez! :D

well, today was another boring sch day. i skipped MICE since i was late and headed to IEP. IEP teacher is sucha bitch, i swear. and uhm, pajamas class was alright. sleepy. met me monster for huffa puff with th usuals and headed to meet my netball siao ehs soon aft to celebrate baby kelly's belated birthday. well, th surprise was spoilt thanks to kepo kelly. HAHA. had ice cream. expensive not worth your money ice cream. -.- andden we went home. (:

im glad baby kelly loved th last minute cupcakes spelling out her name. but i forgot to take a picture of it. boo. :/

here's a photo of th birthday girl; :D

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY KELLY!

EAT MORE PURPLE JELLY!

love, syaza siao eh!"

kay, sidetracking. on saturday i went to zoo with bunned hair. and i left it til th next morning. which was yesterday morning la. and look what it did to me hair! I WAS A HAPPY KID. before i showered tht is. aft tht, it went back to th rebonded hair look. boo you hair. sobzx.

2010-11-07T14:01:00.006Z

saturday daylight was spent at th zoo. helping out our cat friend for th zoo charity.

sold cupcakes and cookies and had to decorate them from morning til evening. man, was it tiring and i was freaking grumpy. but it was fun since we experince a day of being a staff of th zoo. entered from th back gate and rode th buggy. saw th office and had a sneak peak of night safari. dint pay for entrance. saw th elephant and orang utan up close since they were there for charity. they paint and people buy them! cute right! zomg. huhu.

2010-11-05T12:42:00.001Z

oh btw, i think i have officially lost my moon necklace. :'(

i think it dropped aft one of my polite games whn my bag was so freaking full.

im sorry monster for being so careless.

2010-11-05T12:33:00.002Z

hey. i cant believe my blog is pinkish. owells.

anyways, still busy with th stupid cupcakes and cookies for th zoo charity thing.

anyone who has nth to do, pls feel free to come to th zoo and spend your monehhhh okay? :D

i think thts all for now since ive to rush down and help again.

goodnight bloggers. (:

movie marathon, are you th chosen one?

2010-11-04T13:40:00.003Z

hi friends.

my teammates and i are doing a class project. we're gna be doing a 50hours (more or less) movie marathon in sch during th december holidays.
we would like to seek opinions from ITE central students on things. for example, would you like th marathon to be during th late decembers as in 20th december onwards or would you like it to be in th early january next year? please comment your answers here or through my facebook or twitter. for those who have. thank you. (:

and for those kind hearted people who would like to lend us their dvds, please do tell us.

syaza. ira. ema. sisqa. faree. atira. - you can inform anyone of us. or you can approach us for details.
please stay tuned to here, facebook or twitter to get more updates. thankyou. (:

ITS OVER! :D

2010-11-04T12:35:00.006Z

finally, POLITE is over. not gna rush around much anymore now.

we dint win anything, but atleast we're not th lowest. we prove poly wrong. (:

for those who arent happy with us, you can come and smell our armpit kay. whoo. :D

here are some snapshots tht i took from kelly's album. our last day in TP. huhu.

enjoyz.

2010-11-04T04:23:00.001Z

hey dudes and dudettes, leave me your links pls. seems to have lost everything. thanks! :D

2010-10-27T03:49:00.001Z

kaaaaaaaaay, The annoying and The irritating are back. ;)

formspring.me

2010-10-27T03:41:00.001Z

ask away(: http://formspring.me/ferysha1109

2010-10-26T06:36:00.002Z

POLITE has started. played with SP yesterday and they were rough manz. got to play only th last quarter since i was sick and they were afraid i'll faint or smth. went home with a painful backbone and a fver of 39.2. damn, i was so !#$%. but today, im awesome. brought th fever down to 37.9. gna bring it down more since im perspiring alot while watching naruto. ^^v
i'll be back tomro, hopefully! :D
sorry ema, i left you today. heh.

2010-10-22T07:09:00.002Z

well, everything is suddenly back at th top for me. (:

monster's back and still himself. or thts wht he is tryna show. im bonding tons with my SIAO EH mates. and dopeys is still th dopest shit eva!
today, slacked with th usual lepak crew- pirate babyg, zen, zul, zubs, ardy and ZAKI! :D haha. been awhile since ive seen tht dude manz. yup. gna meet some of th siao ehs later. wow, me a happy girl today. me hope so nth goes bad. goodluck to me!

and to monster, goodluck fer your game thts gna happen in less den an hour. save all th balls fer me. ask your team to score 11 for me. hahaha. da menang, pergi msia eh. jangan perangai. have a break with your mates and booooonnnndddddd more! :DD

oh, me want th pictures tht was taken just now. zenkyouuuuuuu.

2010-10-17T13:00:00.003Z

yeah, my hand's itching to text you. but im stopping myself. im gna help you through this. i swear. really. you saw how mean i can be. its either tht, or you play along with reality. if you really think we're meant to be, if we are really meant to be, just let life go on. if im suppose to be yours, i'll come back sooner or later without you torturing yourself like this. okay? we'll just wait for th future. in th meantime, get back to life. there's so many things you're missing out right now. (:

im hoping tht a day will come whn you finally give up on convincing me and letting life work its magic. maybe you'll still be hoping, but everyone hopes. so im not gna be hard on you about tht. its just tht, for now, i want you to still be in my life. if not as my one and only, its as one of my bestest friends. cos i really love th way we can get along so well. remember tht day when i met you for a lil while? see. we could still hang out without much awkwardness. to tell you th truth, i dunt mind your hugs and forehead kisses. well, i'll love to get those giant hugs even whn we're friends. cos friends hug to right? (: and your hugs make me feel like a lil girl. tht monstrous hug of yours is th only thing i can get now. (: okay, i dunt know wht im tryna say. i forgot wht i wanted to say.
im just praying tht th day will come whn you stop convincing me to come back and let life work its magic. im praying tht day would come so i could hug you without bursting into tears or making you suffer. im really praying.
for now, i think th silent treatment is best to torture us both.

i love you monster. even whn we're not as one. many heartshapes for you.

2010-10-16T07:57:00.024Z

okay, this is th summary of th Penang trip. there are more photos, but these is enough to keep me crazy. heh. so yes, dint arrange em. too lousy. i know im late at posting em here, but better late den never ey? (:

SIAO EH! :D

2010-10-15T16:52:00.002Z

hi strangers.

ive been wanting to update this blog, but am kinda lost as to wht to write. huhu.
so yes, a summary of th past 5 days: SIAO EH! hee.
been meeting up with my netballers (heartshapes :D) and WK plus Augusteen. been meeting them everywhere, anywhere, anytime. it may be my break, or aft sch, or before training. those times. hee.
monday was kinda dramatic. but i think thts just cos its a day before i started bleeding. heh. -.-v so yes, monday had dinner with some of th netballers. tuesday, met them before training and talked shit. wednesday.. hmm. i forgot. i think lepaked with twin, WK and augusteen. thursday, sch was short. den we siao eh at j8 before being tortured during training. today, met syahz fenny and nat for lunch. met WK, who i swear is irritating. (sorry fenny) HAHA. and uhm, sok came to lepak awhile! :D
lets not forget tht i met me monster on friday. hugged and forehead kiss. which made me cry. monday and friday mcm emotional days ah. every lil thing pisses me off and made me cry. yeah.

okay, lets talk about some of my mates. :D
sok yen, she officially became my twin in Penang. same birthdate, left handers, both names start with S, people think she is malay whn she is a chinese and vice versa for me, we kinda think a like, whn we laugh-i vibrate and she's th sound and we live in th same town. eh, like a rhyme only! haha. ^^v
syahz and ama completes me name. im SYAZA, ama is LIN, syahz ends it with th NA. haha. and we're th smokers! D: thts th tagline tht needs to be whispered at th end. haha.
shikin is my gemok. haha. we kinda have a big appetite for small people. yeah. (:
i really love th bond i have with my girls now. finally i feel belonged. but mcm wasted la, cos gna graduate soon. just like rly have a team thts so bonded, and im going off alr. :/
lets not forget th crazy basketball siao ehs. haha. we've made friends and we kinda stick to tht?
gna have a chalet in december. us netballers one. basketball one. cant wait. like, exciting uh. heh.

oh wells, i think ive run out of things to say.

good mornight tyou all. (:

2010-10-12T04:04:00.000Z

sch has started.

POLITE is cming.

penang is awesome shit.

SIAO EH!

2010-10-03T07:27:00.001Z

counting down ze hours to 4th October! :D

2010-10-02T05:45:00.002Z

gna get ready soon for raya with th Cleavages! :D

well, part of them la. heh.

and MONDAY! MONDAY IS GETTING NEARER! vibrating with joy. hurhur. ^^v

2010-10-01T05:06:00.008Z

hihi(: counting down th last few days to Penang Trip! :D

anyhoos, yesterday was an awesome day. got to meet my netball babes and monster plus zul! YAY! firstly, met monster and headed to ite mac for Penang briefing. met syaz and th rest, which includes mok, ama, sokyen, awin, puteri and small shikin. (: went in and boy, netballers were th noisiest. haha. aft everything, headed to Kallang to chill before th friendly. ate KFC!

AND THANKYOU DANIAL FITRI AND ZUL FOR LAYANING ME PLAY TH ARCADE. it was awesoooooomeeee. aft getting satisfied a lil, headed to KNC with june, syaz and awin. BAPAK WAS LATE! hahahaha. aft tht chilled at mac, just to get a drink. syaz, emi bapak and awin lor. kecho bro! haha. and love th camwhore sessions aft match. :D

keyword of th day: ABEH TAKOT?! hahaha.

thankyou monster for making th effort to meet me and join my babes. and thankyou for wasting your money on me for KFC and arcade. me like. heartshape. ^o^

2010-09-28T16:14:00.002Z

im crying. cos im so confused right now.

i need a gettaway.

i need my ciggs. i need th beach.

i need haqimah. i need my ayeholes.

i need my past.

2010-09-28T09:30:00.005Z

PRSS Jalan Raya, 270910.

well, it started at around 11. but since i woke up at 11 itself, i went late. met yusuf first since he attended sch and joined th rest at faiz's house. (: everyone was like 'ehhhhh syazaaaaaaaa!' i think they were surprised to see me aft so long? haha. damn, i miss them. and at one part, i went 'WOIT' loudly cos i was surprised to see some of them smoking whn they werent th last time i met them. haha. but well, nth much change. they are still th gerekablest batch ive known. :D hugged all my ayeholes tht i havent met for like wht? 2 years? yeah manz. haha. sadly, ilyas aidil and ameng werent thr. if not, i could have met my complete set of ayeholes. :/ owells, one fine day la eh. hmmm. actually, from th pictures, i saw tht aidil was thr. guess he went off earlier so i dint get to meet him. yeah. had fun. and thank God they agreed to make my house th last one. if not, i'll be going home alone man. and they left at 12plus? haha. aankambing was like steamed face alr. i had loads of fun with them.

syuzzy wuzzy. tickles. syaza dear. THANKS AH BARAQ YUSUF AMIRUL! D: hahahaha. thanks for being my bodyguard eh. oh, not to forget, JASOOOOOOOOOONNNNN! :D hahaha. oh man, they make me miss th hard rebellious life. oyeah, some told me tht ive changed. some told me they miss th old me. haha. guess ive changed somehow eh during th 2years. but one thing dint change, th friendship. oh, thr is another thing, they're still afraid tht i'll kick their balls. -.- mhmm. haha. i hope i get to hang out with them pretty soon. cos i love th past better den i love th present. honestly. and they're still th awesomemest bestest friends anyone could find. yeah. me love them. and thank you fiqah for letting me talk to ilyas for awhile. tht was really nice. to get to talk to him. (: hmm. wht else? uhm, oh. we remembered th past and its so funny remembering them! haha. i cant help but to repeat, i miss th past. i miss my ayeholes and mates. i miss being th small one with a loud voice. i miss being th shameless person i was. i miss everything back then. sigh. one day, i hope, i could just spent a day being th old me; th small one. shameless. single. emotional. loud. mischevious one. with th boys who protect and be thr for me. i love you people! :D

and to bie; hope you enjoyed your day and sorry i couldnt meet you today. i woke up at two. and i know i cant go out by then. im sorry. happy legal birthday! lets smoke til we die. hurhur. ^^v

what else do i need to update?

OH F1! uhm, fun. loud. tiring. independent. rupert grint. khairul anwar. primary sch mate. hot ang mos. cute babies. loud car. hamilton lost, yes ah! uhm, worked with a family member. new friends. best supervisor. cut toes. pimpled forehead. worthwhile job. :D

2010-09-27T05:01:00.001Z

hi. F1 is finally over. and i have baaaaad black eyebags as souvenirs. wow.
i wna sleep again. but i gta attend PRSS jalan raya. maaaanz.
kay, thts all for now.

2010-09-21T15:34:00.002Z

okaaaaaay, i know im slow at uploading raya pics, but better late den never right. heh. these are few shots of th days i went out with family for raya. and these are th 3 baju rayas for this year. not much eh? heh.

kay, havent been updating.

well, yesterday. had POLITE training and uhm, collected f1 shirts. yeah. well, met pirate earlier to collect. lepak with em awhile before they headed to their plces. den went pastamania to makaaaaan! :D annoying monster did all th cashing out. huhu. oh, and i got meself a jumbo YAMIyoghurt. huhu. me like. ^^v
well, training is getting tough. had to run 2.4 aft eating all tht. uhm, kinda cheated a lil? but who cares. haha. sorry ms regina for cheating. but i was just darn lazy.
even now, my aching hasnt recovered and i have freaking training again tomro. -.- damn manz. owells, i need some excercise. if not i'll suffer. hee. today was suppose to jalan raya with class. but i had adb presentation. -.- ended waaaaaaay late and i was half dead cos i needed to wake up earlier den usual. so headed home and knocked out before they came. from a bunch, only 5 made it to jalan raya eh. -.- survivors were: nana. rara. putra. ira. faree. haha. hope you guys had fun. :D
thursday, im not sure about training. maybe i'll give it a skip cos f1's on fridaaaaaaay! :D
friday til sunday are f1 days.
monday, will be jalaning raya with th sec sch people. yup.

saluting yan xun for sending tht mail. twice.

HAHAHA.

2010-09-15T16:10:00.004Z

alright. before im off, i wna do a quick update.

EXAMS ARE DONEEEE! :D HOLIDAY AYE AYE AYE AYE AHHHHHHHHHH! hoots. ^^

okay, but i dunt rly laze around since ive been called to attend th POLITE trainings. owells, some excercise is good for me. heh. so started training yesterday/today. alah, wednesday la. gna have training again on thursday (today/tomro) -.- lets not forget mondaywednesdaythursday. but im intending not to go on wednesday. heh.
err, raya. hmmm. skip, neexxxxxttttt.
penangpenangpenang. cb, ada bad news! D: but owells, me wna tell th good news. i think th windbreaker is gna be awesommmeeee! :D

TRAIN IS CMING, TRAIN IS CMING, TRAIN IS CMIIINNNNGGGGGG~

im. gna. have. nightmares.

goodnight.

2010-09-13T13:53:00.002Z

WHOAAAAAAAAAAA! i have POL-ITE trainings on wednesday and thursday! D:

i dunt know if thts good news or not uh. haha. daddy said its good cos i got chosen. but im afraid cos ive just recovered from tht evil bronchial asthma thingy. well, i just i'll go but take it easy? i forgot who else got chosen and is going. hmm.
i have my one and only paper on wednesday. and i reallyyyyyy hope tht my mood tomro is good so tht i can cramp all those info up thr. im not sure if i wna bring my stuffs straight or i should go home first. im confused. fickled.

kay, im bored. bye.

2010-09-12T16:19:00.002Z

im a bad charmed girl.

stay away from me if you dunt wna get bad luck.

go far away from me.

2010-09-09T14:46:00.002Z

YAY YAY! SUDAH RAYA!

YAY YAY! TKY PUASA!

YAY YAY! BOLEH MAKAN SESUKA HATI!

YAY YAY! DAPAT DUIT!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. :D

selamat hari raya friends and passerbys!

hope you're dancing around th house singing raya songs!

whooo, jom enjoy!

2010-09-06T16:20:00.002Z

okay, my flu just gotten worst. not only do i have flu but im coughing away with sore throats, headaches and breathlessness. i hope it goes away soon. raya da nak datang sey. :/
anyhoo, today i had to go sch eventhough i dint have classes. had adb test. whoo, i hope i pass cos i find it manageable. i mean its all mcqs. -.- yeah.
partner in crime and uhm, family came for buka today. yup. noisy. loads of fun. me love. :D
thr is no words to describe it so i might as well end it here. goodnight.(:

2010-09-04T06:41:00.011Z

That is a summary of 020910.

A frindly game with Taipei players.

^^v

2010-09-03T15:04:00.003Z

020910, got to skip a torturous lesson of ADB for some netball. :D reached Netball Kallang Centre to have a friendly with th Taipei people. apparently, they are all basketballers cos they dunt have an official netball team thr yet. it was fun, but tiring since they are all Giants (Giants as in tall tall. and i really mean tall). lets not forget tht they are sprinters too. thr i am panting like some dog in th last quarter and my opponent seems so chilled out. -.- yeah. but i kinda did well i guess since coach and teacher dint shout at me. they even advise me nicely. ^^v me likey like.
headed to town aft tht to have some bonding session with th team. DO NOT WASTE YOUR MONEY ON HAUNTED CHANGI. I REPEAT, DO NOT WASTE YOUR MONEY. seriously. we were like 'i want my 6bucks baaaaaacccckkkk th whole time we went out of th theatre' aft tht, we kinda split into 2groups and Cleavages plus penyu went to Somerset313 to just walk around. we all suddenly felt shagged and headed home. i slept from aft buka til just now sahur. and continued again til 10am. yep, tht tired.

030910, came for POM to do a paper and was driven to ITE Simei for th f1 talk. gosh, it was th same exact lame act from last year's talk. -.- was so restless. thank God i was sitting in between sisqa and fifa. atleast there were some craps to laugh about. haha. aft tht, headed to Tamp. faree, ira and i walked about tamp1 to waste time. and we rly did. we went off around 640ish? i think. yes.

well, i love th end of this week. (:

monday, i'll be having ADB test. wish me luck passerby(s). :D

2010-08-29T07:53:00.002Z

yep, im in high heels. -.-

nope, tht aint my high heels. haha. its faree's. we exchanged shoes for awhile cos her feet were aching. HAHA. had an awesome saturday night yesterday. eventhough plans changed, i still had lotsa fun with my Dopeys. :D
went to ION and walked around. planned to head for swensens but th queue was halfway outside th shop itself. -.- gave up and headed to Dunkin' Donuts. yeah. met sisqa at cineleisure aft persuading her to come. sat and talked cock and pictureeesssss. huhu.
man, i regretted not buying those earrings and uhm, necklace. shit. i needa psycho my parents to go thr soon. must. must. HAHAHA.
kay, reached home and i turned back into Cinderella. had to do more kuihs til 4plus. -.-

AND WORST, TOMRO SCH LEY. I DUNT WANT TO GO CAN? :/

2010-08-25T16:03:00.004Z

Mendak Monday.

Totally Thumbs up Tuesday.

Wickedly Wild Wednesday.

^o^

heh. we'll see about th rest of th week.

kay now need to make kuih. goodnight humans. morning vampires.

2010-08-23T09:29:00.002Z

i still love you. maybe i dunt know how to prioritise. but you're my number1, boy. think whatever you want. hurt me all you want. but i wunt change my mind. i may not show much, i may not have much, but i want you to know tht i never wna let you go. i dunt have much of a choice in words and my freedom. it may seem tht i find other stuffs much more important den you, but thts wrong. i dunt ever wna lose you. i dunt ever wna say goodbye. give me time to get this right. cos i dunt make right choices alot. i only know tht i made a right choice in loving you.

please, dunt ever give up on me. dunt ever let me go. i'll lose my mind.

im sorry.

2010-08-20T14:11:00.001Z

I HAVE TO BE IN SCH ON A SATURDAY. WORST STILL, IN SCH U. -.-

2010-08-18T07:55:00.001Z

brr, its cold in here.

YAY! vacuumed th ground floor and cleared my cupboard and its more spacious at places uh. but i still dint get my goal of stuffing every single thing outside in the cupboard. gta nag at sis to clear hers soon so i'll have my space back. i hope she works with me on this. -.-
so yes, aft cleaning and i have nth to do. im here, facebook, tumblr, chat. chatting with bie and dee now.
later, (:

2010-08-17T14:08:00.003Z

i miss this stupid irritating monster.

hmm, i realise i dunt have alot of pictures of this gay boy of mine. we dunt rly snap pictures of ourselves. hurhur. thats a shame. monster, maybe we should snap pictures of us soon okay? haha.

anyways, yay! today part2 of cleaning is done. well, nearly done. i cant clean up a part of th room cos its parents stuffs and idk whr to chuck it. esp th electronic stuffs and carpets. all we needa do is shift those bulky items, throw th spoilt comp and parts, shift here and thr and we're done! :D but tht gta wait til th rest are willing to help me. :/

so yes, tomro.. gna clean MY room next. clear all th old stuffs and shit. needa concentrate more on sister's part. her bags and cupboard. damn, thts gna be harsh. hurhur.

yes, as you can see.. im spending my YOG break cleaning th house and doing chores. -.- i can be a part time maid dude. haha. but im real happy tht im cleaning those plces. i just feel so relief aft cleaning them. but i have to deal with th dust, itch and sneezing. -.- tht part, hurgh. just hurgh.

okay, idk wht else to say. tumblr is having some problem and thts not fun. back to fb games, i suppose. night.(:

2010-08-16T09:12:00.002Z

YAY! th bookshelf looks neater. -.- but idk which books to throw. thr are tons of books tht i wish to throw, but they arent mine and i have no say in th decisions. owells, later i'll be asking th owners. (: part 2 of cleaning th toyroom would be continued tomro thanks to th dust that made me sneeze and now im shivering and weak. buka time, pls come a lil faster. another uhm, 2hours to go! :D i hope i can clean tht room by tomro. goodluck to meself. (: huhu.

anyways, found origami book while cleaning and i tried it. yay! i wna buy origami book tht i was recently la! its awesome. anyone wna buy it for me. (; hehe.
im tired, but my eyes wunt close. im hot, but i'll perspire if i switch th fan off. damn, im confused.

OKAY, GAMES&TUMBLR TIME! :D

2010-08-12T15:58:00.002Z

The 5th (12) is coming to an end in two minutes.

and th countdown for another one of these (12)s will start.

forehead kiss.

2010-08-11T14:09:00.002Z

uhm, wow. my comp just shut on me aft i wrote a paragraph. -.-

its th eleventh! :D one more month to raya and me special day! hurhur. ^^v
anyways, i was saying tht today started puasa and i had YOG 4on4 netball at ite yishun.
congrats to my babes and th soccer team for their medals! :D
zubir, if you win again next time, dunt bother taking your medal. -.- seriously.
basically had fun today. met my cleavages, part of it, and boy do i miss em. (:
someone made me build a train of vulgarities and do stupid stuffs. i hated tht part.
thts all. before my comp shut, goodnight! :D

2010-08-08T09:27:00.002Z

yesterday, i went to the YOG rehearsal show with monster and thousands of other strangers. it was okay la. we went in too early and got restless. hurhur. and th freaking show started at 8 whn they said it was at 730. pft betul.

as you can see, i love th fireworks. alot. heh. but we dint stay til th end. cos it was boring. i was tired of seating. and we were getting restless. oyes, and we cant go home too late. so waited for th kanya flag to come out as dan's friend is th one holding it. den we got th hell out of thr. haha. i find it more national-y day rather den yog. :/ thts just my opinion la. but it was fun. doing th wave and making a fool out of ourselves. mhmm.

kay, now im struggling with ADB. goodluck to me.

2010-08-01T14:23:00.002Z

uhm okay.
today i skipped madrasah aft waking up let and a trainful of mama's nagging. i just dunt feel well dude. -.- like she would believe tht phrase. tsk. even whn i like semangat mandi and got ready to go doctor for my stupid legs, she took her own sweet time eating, ngaji, watch tv, cats and stuffs. boy, was i pissed off. i mean, i feel so sick tht my body is numb and my head keep spinning whenevs i move and this itch shet isnt helping. okay.
oh guess wht, walked all th way to fucking geylang, saying th clinic open and it wasnt. nice huh mama. and we had to walked all th way back to eunos mrt to get my stupid legs checked. sempat beli minyak you! giving my two middle fingers to th air. seriously.

experience at th doctor:
how may i help you, asked th stupid old doctor wearing th mask. i showed my leg. anywhr else, and i showed all parts of both my feet in his face. 'are you allergic to anything?' 'no' 'okay, apply this and eat this' thankyou. IT COSTS ME FUCKING $60 BUCKS JUST SO TH DOCTOR COULD SAY EAT THIS AND APPLY THT?! -.- real ass. i should have kicked his face while he was examining my feet.

2010-07-31T07:30:00.003Z

FUCK YOU. CB. ASSHOLE. KNN. FUCK YOU!

tht was wht monster got from me for surprising me yesterday. hahaha. cos he said he was damn tired and shit and couldnt meet me, and wow, suddenly he appeared whn he is suppose to be lying down, almost asleep. -.-

love you la, stupid ass. (:

psst, th middle picture is telling th truth. tht you are an idiot. ^o^v

2010-07-27T15:52:00.003Z

yes, tht is my hair for tonight. (:

no, i dint curl it or whatevs you call this hairstyle. i braided me hair from last thursday and when i took everything out, it became like some sick lion's hair. huhu. i like it cos it makes my hair look so thick and has volume. my normal straight hair makes me look so flat. :/ i wish i could curl it or smth but parents wouldnt allow since it may spoil my hair. boo.

anyhoo, reached home at 10plus.

spent th day meeting up with love ones.

went to yishun to spend time with my irritating monster. today, he's full of crap. i swear. -.- haha. but i love today and him. its been so long since we met, just th two of us for a couple of hours. blame sch and ccas. :D

aft that, i was sent to tampines to meet my beloved Dopeys! :D had a surprise thing planned for sisqa who was cluelessly having fun at th dance studio. she had two surprised cakes for today! and we headed to tamp1 rooftop to chill aft they finished dancing. boy, my tummy hurts from laughing too much. i swear.

basically, im gna sleep with a smile on my face tonight.

goodnight passerby(s). (:

2010-07-26T15:33:00.006Z

kay, sch has started again. -.- as in like, th weekends are over la. and right, i felt like it was a long weekend. friday saturday sunday, celebrated sister's birthday. special la sangat ye. mcm smpai tiga hari kena nyanyi dia birthday song. tiga hari dia dapat cake! hahaha.

friday: went to straits kitch with family, kak mar and ibu. my cake was 'confiscated'. buat susah jer saya skip sch and go somerset ye. -.- she had this pathetic pandan cake instead. we feasted over th buffet. came home with bloated tummys.

saturday: party at jln pergam. sister's plus faustine's birthday celebration. theme: green/army. so gyeah. so many kids. so many junks. my tummy hurts from eating alot more. and atlast, my cake was cut. i dint eat it cos it dint look delicious after all. :/

sunday: went tamp to walk about with family. ate at fish. wanted discounts, so asked about birthday discounts. and again, sister got a cake and th whole restaurant sang for her a song. haha.

so yes, i hope its finally over. cos her birthday is over.

goodnight.